Another day another pound

It has been a great two days I have eaten well and walk/jogged both days. Today I did 3 miles with Andrew and Sadie in the stroller. I wante to cheat so bad tonight and get my son's leftovers out of the frige so bad but I did not instead I walked around the block agian. Training my brain is going to be the harsest part. Sometimes I wake up planning my meals for the day. I need to train my brain to think of food of a nessisty to live not something that I have to have because it tastes good. Easter is three days away ughh stay away easter bunny.

A road traveled over and over again

I am a mom of 4. Three boys and one girl. My baby girl is my biggest inspiration for this weight loss journey. You see I have ALWAYS been over weight even when I was a child. I got teased, laughed at, and made fun of. The comments that were made to me still haunt me. I do not want my daughter or any of my son's to have to go through what I did. I want to set a good example for my children.
Some people say they got fat because they had kids, or something bad happened to them so they ate their feeling away. You know I can use all those excuses but my big this is I like food. I love the way it taste and if it taste good I want more. I wake up in the morning wondering what am I going to have for dinner. I get excited about food. I know some of not most of my eating habits stem from what I was taught as a child and from feelings that I hide away. No matter what it is I have to look past it and get through this. I am a very strong person I have had to deal with far more than others so I know that I can do this. I just have to find the strength in me to keep going. I usually will start a diet do great and fail in a few weeks sometimes even days. I played with the decision to make a blog for a few weeks now finally I just did it. So here I am a very fat, un-happy with herself Tori. This is the journey that will change not only my life but also my children's. I am ready for the change.

I weighed two weeks ago at 315 not the biggest I have ever been but I did say I would never get over 300 again. This morning two week later I am 299! No more 300's and I really mean this ever ever again. Yesterday I went for a two mile walk with the kids part of the walk I jogged I ran past a bunch of teenagers who just sat there and laughed. That for me was more motivation to keep doing. Today will be a good day.